It's in the frizz

At the moment I do not feel the need to be glamorous... just plain old me. This summer I went blond and curly. The perfect combination for dry hair so I cut a lot of it off one day at the mall and now I am stuck with a flat bob hair cut. I knew when she was blow drying it that keeping it looking nice would be a problem. However, here in the suburbs there is no excuse for flat hair. Therefore I have to either get a straightener or a proper blow dryer to give it some pizzaz for the holidays. I wanted to get those clip on extensions so I can play between two hair styles but since there is only 3 days till Christmas and I have no appointments. I will just have go to the pharmacy. I just want my life to stay simple that is why I love it at the cottage.. If I can get into a routine maybe I can still have a simple life and bouncy hair. Now I spend no time at all on my hair.

Crunch time

Never knowing what to expect I think is key. Letting instincts and preparedness lead me to an assured crossover from controlled simplicity to instant destiny transfer.

Can almost tragic situation be the result of an off quiltered thought process? Or since the present is all one is expected to encounter, I can be assured of ultimate guidance and internal preparation when living in the kingdom... that is being uninterested with the results yet active in surrender to destiny and love.

Publish Post

No more letters?

Embracing life in a virtual community takes some getting use to. I have not seen so much snow in a long time. Actually I did not know Toronto got this much snow. There is one good thing about condo living and that is the view. Yes I must say that no matter what you look at when something spans the horizon and is covered in snow, it borders on the fantastic. We came in with all our cottage gear last night and now I must clean up our abode, transfer clothes and try to put together a couple of things to mail out. That is something I am terrible at.

I don't know how I used to write letters and mail them to my friends growing up in the 80's. Now I can't even write individual emails to the friends I think about through out my day, probably like you do. Since the unslought of facebook in my life and the desire to catch up with so many old friends I have fought with the desire to poke, grow a egg, become a pirate, a vampire.... or simply right a note. I have tried a few of these and will continue to do so with the addition that now have decided to simply write more notes and spam them all to you. ;) So if there is a note you want me to read just tag me to it.

Did I mention that My husband just started snowboarding and he can keep up with me. We went this month and to my surprise while going down the hill I turned around to see where he was at and he was right on my heals and that was only is second time.. Our oldest is learning too. I am so happy I am able to snowboard with my family. It gives me an incredible satisfaction. It is never too late!

Embracing life

I have not seen so much snow in a long time. Actually I did not know Toronto got this much snow. There is one good thing about condo living and that is the view. Yes I must say that no matter what you look at when something spans the horizon and is covered in snow it borders on the fantastic. We came in with all our cottage gear last night and now I must clean up our abode, transfer clothes and try to put together a couple of things to mail out. That is something I am terrible at.

How I used to write letters and mail them to my friends growing up in the 80's, I don't know.  Now I can't even write individual emails to the friends I think about through out my day, probably like you do. Since facebook in my life and the desire to catch up with so many old friends, I have fought with the desire to poke, grow an egg, become a pirate, a vampire.... or simply right a note. I have tried a few of these and will continue to do so with the addition that now have decided to simply write more notes and spam them all to you. ;) So if there is a note you want me to read just tag me to it.

Did I mention that my husband just started snowboarding and he can keep up with me. We went this month and to my surprise while going down the hill I turned around to see where he was at and he was right on my heals and that was only is second time.. Our eldest is learning too. I am so happy I am able to snowboard with my family. It gives me an incredible satisfaction. It is never too late!

I often check out the new applications on facebook

One in particular made me wonder what does it feel like to be pure? Should I be striving for the clarity it brings? Was I pure before my first anything or will I only be after my last anything is done? Does my lack of experience, or a recent washing away of mistakes deliver me from my instinct or habits? Time entails me to explore my delicious apathy (humanity).

I occupy my present when I let go of my pretenses desires, dreams, value, courage and limits and initiate a procedure of thanks for the actual flow that is my life in God's hand. That is what connects me with God. The truth in love. First towards myself for without it no attempt to change will be possible. Then anything that creates a loss of footing propels me into the arms of God joyfully.

The purpose then is peace in the heart whether conflict assails me or not. Otherwise I will never be able to see the truth of other's for what it is... a perspective of reality different then mine.... right Now. Reality.... truth about the mythical and legendary Son of God. Therefore, I suspect that purity is not being whole but loving my handicaps and giving others the benefit of the doubt. This allows me not to get hung up on anything.

Otherwise I will never be able to rethink my position about anything. God is outside the box. A conventional high priority level on the pure meter might be lower then a low score or the board. Arrogance could pull me out of sync and outside freedom. Simplicity with a humble outlook accounts for a melodious realignment. Remember, ignorance (carefree) is bliss but one bird in the hands is not better than two in the bush. The fire refines.

Time will tell.

Living in bliss

Life is suburbia is awesome. Hoohouhooohou!!!! It is as if I was extracted from my random currents and placed within a specific loving family. My husband and I have the kids twice a week and every other weekend. We go fishing up north at the cottage with them or on our own. I started a web development company that manages Internet projects my husband has through his company. I love working at loving him. He is gracious and patient with me as learn about corporate life and how to communicate my vision. Family life has brought a welcomed sense of belonging in my life. I cherish the times we spend with our 3 kids and miss them when they are away. I started reading about my role as a step mom. Sometimes what is obvious to me is not to them and vice versa. I have already grown to be an attentive and devoted caring agent in their lives. This recurrent simplicity is endearing. My future is now.

What is it about

Yesterday I did 1hr of cardio and got lots done around the house but failed to pursue leads in my work. I'll remedy that today....

Regulated effort will perpetuate this new life quality I mean to incorporate in my movements. Up at 7am I rose, ready to nudge the kids out of bed and feed them breakfast. In no time were we out the door waiting for the elevator and on the highway to their house...

Now I am ready to face another day with vigor and efficiency...

Why write?

The moment is such that I lean towards writing. I've lately often let go in this manner to eradicate a nightmarish vision of my situation and imbue it with sense. The process has of recent been triggered by tremendous upheaval in my otherwise normal life.

What is pure

I often check out the new applications. One in particular made me wonder what does it feel like to be pure? Should I be striving for the clarity it brings? Was I pure before my first anything or will I only be after my last anything is done? Does my lack of experience, or a recent washing away of mistakes deliver me from my instinct or habits? Time entails me to explore my delicious apathy (humanity). I occupy my present when I let go of my pretenses desires, dreams, value, courage and limits and initiate a procedure of thanks for the actual flow that is my life in God's hand. That is what connects me with God. The truth in love. First towards myself for without it no attempt to change will be possible. Then anything that creates a loss of footing propels me into the arms of God joyfully. The purpose then is peace in the heart whether conflict assails me or not. Otherwise I will never be able to see the truth of other's for what it is... a perspective of reality different then mine.... right Now. Reality.... truth about the mythical and legendary Son of God. Therefore, I suspect that purity is not being whole but loving my handicaps and giving others the benefit of the doubt. This allows me not to get hung up on anything. Otherwise I will never be able to rethink my position about anything. God is outside the box. A conventional high priority level on the pure meter might be lower then a low score or the board. Arrogance could pull me out of sync and outside freedom. Simplicity with a humble outlook accounts for a melodious realignment. Remember, ignorance (carefree) is bliss but one bird in the hands is not better than two in the bush. The fire refines. Time will tell.

Priscilla:

I know what you mean. will this be part of your book?I must confess, i cannot fornicate (like when i was 20.) I realized this week what it means to be allergic to latex. On medical terms, i can't be in close contact to latex... it means that i have no choice but be faithful to my hubby.
and if my husband was to pass away... I'd be faithful to God. I can't live with the consequences of using a "latex" condom.I certainly couldn't afford the alternative sheep condom... Isn't it funny how life goes. it's God's plan that stand.

There is always a way to do the right or wrong thing. It all depends on what we want. God provides the rest. I have also noticed that he changes and rearranges our desires and the situations around us to fit with his will... helping us attain the ability to excel in His ways.

My vision of suburbia

I love my new found "housewife" life. Loving him love God is energizing. We resonate on all levels. It is a joy to love him. My man is incredible and so are the kids. I caught my first fish of the season last weekend. Wooohooo!!! I threw it back in though. My step daughter's was bigger so we ate hers. I am blooming and will soon transition fully as a woman. I am thankful to God for his grace. I enjoy listening to the Edge while doing my housework. I now created a peaceful ironing laundry room and a reading/ electronics corner. Yesterday while folding an enormous pile of laundry I watched the last episodes of Alias season 2.. I am hooked. Now I live vicariously through Sydney. I am getting used to the highways and malls way of life. Organizing and cleaning, I am building my nest. I now understand what a bird feels like. I have never loved cleaning more then I do since I am married. I wonder if one gets over the joy of homemaking or once you got it it's yours. I love that everyone here is into fire works. Its quite insane I never saw so many houses have their own little show going on. From the 17th floor we could see the whole city going off in sparks. Made me think of Beirut and how sparks were flying there too.... but worlds apart. As for today it will be a beauty day for me. (Silk nails. Brazilian and Blonder highlights) morphing into my vision of suburbanism. {xox} Taking the acrylic off was intense. They did such a hack job. I've been letting them breathe for a good two weeks now. You know when the sides keep peeling and bleeding a little. Normally I go to whole in the wall shops thinking I might get a European experience there. Well this time I went to the best shop in town and made an appointment. Anyways, I was told to put tons of Polysporin on them.. It's working.

Getaway

I am taking a moment while my brand new husband is sleeping next to me in the sun by the pool "in the garden of Eden" to write an overview of all that we have seen and done on this magnificent trip of orgasmic proportion.

Day one

On the plane, He talked to a retired marine officer who was on his way to a submarine convention in Naples. The man explained to him how a few families all of which are members of a secret order ran the world. Hilary would run as president for 2 terms followed by Gore. It turned out the officer is a Pentecostal and knew of his story. Cary shared with him some of what he learned from it and showed him Bruxey's book "the irreligious life" but a lot of it went over the man's head. I on the other hand watched the movie "Lyrics and something" spoke minimally with the lady across the isle about her Bahai faith.

We landed in Rome and decided to go straight to Naples by train. We found the station in the airport and were in Naples by the afternoon. The tourist office sold 3day museum passes so we bought 2 before exiting the Naples train station. The city was buzzing with cars and people everywhere. We weaved through it all and made our way across town near the port where we found a cute hotel.

As my love and I forge our way across Italy, I am elated to see how each micro moment has lead us more clearly into this unconscious reality. The way we experience life and interact with each other and the world around us has been a proactive negation of ourselves. God exalted through our desires and humble realization of our humanness.

(Will add the rest of our Italian getaway later)

Prelude to a kiss

We are building the foundations of our marriage within a community of loved ones. Let it be the talk of town. I am entering the K family. LUCKY ME, they also have a propensity for family. When I found out of my imminent insertion into the flow of society I was afraid to admit it but I feared no one from my extended family would come to the inauguration of my new state and wondered how different things would be were it my wake. I thought to have it in Toronto this way I can still think that had I held such a lavish affair within 100k radius of their homes many would have come. But I still had to invite them and go through the shame of everyone being incapacitated. That is why we chose to meet in Ottawa instead. As it turns out none of them will attend the proceedings.

The wedding will take place over the weekend at the Chateau Cartier. We will tie the knot late in the afternoon allowing for golf and spa activities during the day. (Pool)
It will be a fairytale moment. I will be walking through a field of flowers. For each guest will raise enormous daisies as I flow down the aisle. I'll feel like Alice in Wonderland. A multitude of large 3 and half-foot wide daisies will grace the side of our Wedding Pavilion. It's going to be a magical moment when Our youngest dances down blowing large bubbles into the air. It will be dream to remember!


So lets celebrate what God has ordained. The joining of two absolutely extreme individuals who share in His Graces. Love and Faithfulness will anchor this matrimonial day. Witnessed by the most cherished…Living in the moment! You are all well aware of our spontaneity and love for adventure. We agreed early on we would not have a long drawn out engagement but use the adrenaline rush of a last minute wedding to launch us into the next exciting chapter of our lives. We are so excited to have you join us on our special day. So let's make it happen have some fun and get on with life!
So we can aimlessly travel through Italy breaking a few headboards along our married way!

The Planet times:
Relentlessly pursued by the paparazzi, Caryzabeth's whirlwind romance has never been below the radar. Even though news of their engagement did not remain a secret very long, the dynamic duo has left us no time to bask in their glorious accent to matrimony. They have surprised the world (but surely not their close friends and family) and have given Planet Times the exclusive. In order to facilitate the preparations of Elizabeth and Cary's intimate celebration, you will find all the information needed to elevate their love to new ground and enjoy yourself with new and old friends during the weekend event.

Mother of the bride:
Have a good sense of humor; don't let the sun go down on your anger, no nagging, and no manipulation. Don't expect the other to fill all your needs. I like what your friend John said a good wrestle is always beneficial. I think dad and I must have our black belt by now. Just don't make it last and don't keep grudges and start being bitter. One thing I did is to be Brian's best fan, E be the best fan C will ever have. Support him in his decision and in his privileged role of being the head of the household. Respect each other and put God first because He is the real head of the household. Read the small epistles and look at all the biblical principles that you can use in a husband-wife relationship. There are many. Always remember that we are under grace. Ephesians 4.

John and Kelly:
Is that Martial or marital...I always get them confused... Anyway... a good wrestle now and then is always beneficial. You guys really are a duo, and John and I are so happy for you both... Let's Party!

Annie:
Figure out what your husband's or your wife's love languages are. Show him/her you love him/her that way. Love unconditionally. Le journal est vraiment bien. Vous preparez votre marriage a la vitesse d'un éclair. J'ai hate!

Priscilla:
Re: seeing each other every weekend. It's amazing that you haven't missed 1 weekend. You truly enjoy each other's company. You will cherish even more married life. Praise God you both found each other.

Sarah:

t'é pas mal romantique toi :)

Nadine:

Hey you Two,
Randy and I so badly wish we could be there to share such an incredible day with you......so so sorry we can't make it. Be assured that we will share it with you in our hearts! God has already blessed you guys with such an amazing relationship, but what exciting days are ahead! We are so excited for you guys.....and I hope you break a record amount of headboards!!
Love you!
Nadine

Christiane:

I am so eager for that amazing day where my amazing daughter will be married to such a nice, strong, kind,...gentleman. We will already have new grandchildren to welcome in our already big family. We love you all.