Next summer's to do list

I have the winter to prepare an attractive habitat for Humming Birds, Bats and Chicken.

Somehow Lambsquater infiltrated my crops and I raised an out of control common weed as a one of my plants. So. To me it's one. http://toadhill.tripod.com/lambsquarter.htm Looking into it a little more, I noticed it wins in nutrients above all vegetable... and is loved by Grasshoppers. http://mint.ippc.orst.edu/lambsquarter.htm Bitter sweet discovery... It's among the "Big Five" garden pests I want to control next year. (Grasshoppers, Slugs, Aphids, Catterpilers and Moskitos) Do I trust nature even if I have not seen a grasshopper on my Lambsquater...yet? What if I raise Grasshoppers? Are they good for anything? Let me see.... During the depression, some farmers successfully used turkeys to control grasshoppers. Sounds interesting. Another reason to have a couple of free range chicken ;)

There is a season for everything and not all countries have all seasons.

There is a nursury at the gym and I wondered if taking care of other women's babies would be nice. I love babies these days. Then knowing how attached i am to my step kids, I wondered how attached one could get to another person's child when one is simply payed to care for it... Which led to understanding the pain when a foster child is put back in the system... Then how too often children die before their patents.

A lot goes on in my mind now that we are looking into having a child. My clock is ticking.. Chances are by months end we will have solutions to our questions.. Just knowing could be enough. Finding out is painful as it is, going through with it will lead to joy for sure but also ultimate pain. So this is how I've formulated it to make sence.

In order to bridge the gap from being needy to a giver, one must first be made aware of one's entitled graced position, then proceed without expectations to take ownership of new relationships because to love one day is better then to have never loved at all and that all relationships involve sacrificial commitment. When one loves at the level one is positionaly entitled to with no expectation, love is stronger then pain. So... If one is aware of one's sence of entitlement, one's commitment should not be destructive.

Chasteberry
Dong Quai

People are so afraid to die they'll do what they are told.

Our generation has not stopped the life cycle. We still end up recycled into vegetation but the dignity and expectation of imminent death is gone. Instead it has been replaced with a rampant fear of death. "Wear your seatbelt, don't drink and drive, don't smoke, don't drive too fast, don't eat canned Tuna, get your H1N1 shot..." There is no ambiguity, we are ahead of the dark ages but at least back in the day people expected to die or that a sibling would not make it into adulthood. Living happily ever after is the biggest illusion and perfect hook to escalate fear mongering. Instead of promoting a toxic laden cocktail to supposedly keep you alive and showing people crying on the news, the media/government should promote grief counseling and calmly inculcate rational thought processes. Instead, just like for the bale out plan, they are promoting fear in order to pass us an onion. That's why I am living purposefully now with eternity in mind. What is your exit plan? Are you afraid to die?

I was noticing how the fear of death has become the motivator of choice to push a science experience on society. Things were different a few months ago. It used to be that the lure of financial success made the world go round... until the bail out. I won't be bullied into an oblivion. The internet is there for everyone. We have the right to make decisions for ourselves. I chose to eat foods with nutrients and to take supplements... A healthy immune system is built as lifestyle not a quick fix.