There is a nursury at the gym and I wondered if taking care of other women's babies would be nice. I love babies these days. Then knowing how attached i am to my step kids, I wondered how attached one could get to another person's child when one is simply payed to care for it... Which led to understanding the pain when a foster child is put back in the system... Then how too often children die before their patents.
A lot goes on in my mind now that we are looking into having a child. My clock is ticking.. Chances are by months end we will have solutions to our questions.. Just knowing could be enough. Finding out is painful as it is, going through with it will lead to joy for sure but also ultimate pain. So this is how I've formulated it to make sence.
In order to bridge the gap from being needy to a giver, one must first be made aware of one's entitled graced position, then proceed without expectations to take ownership of new relationships because to love one day is better then to have never loved at all and that all relationships involve sacrificial commitment. When one loves at the level one is positionaly entitled to with no expectation, love is stronger then pain. So... If one is aware of one's sence of entitlement, one's commitment should not be destructive.
Chasteberry
Dong Quai
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