The more I know the less I fear

People say that often when a couple adopts it results in a pregnancy. I have been blessed with 3 amazing step kids so I don't feel the need to adopt. I just would like to make a little person. When I voice it it sounds weird and even a little selfish. I put it in God's hands.  Most of the time I don't let myself be bothered with the idea of pregnancy until the topic comes up again and I have to do something about it and trust God some more. The stage of infertility that I am in right now is about knowledge. To the outsider it may look like i'm obsessing and to some extant I am.  I spend all my time online researching and keeping a graph of my symptoms and temperatures. I admit it is stressing me. I cried a bunch last week but that was more out of desperation for not understanding why it could not happen to me... not even a miscarriage. I'm surprised how fertility docs don't give you tools but like any changes that have happened in my life it's only when I have said "enough is enough" that I have done the work needed.

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Pieces of a puzzle

After a few days searching the topic on the Internet I feel empowered for the first time. I am now realizing that there is so much to learn and just in the last two days I've changed considerably my focus. I now care both about my cervix which I mean to find and track and about the quality of my mucus which before was only an inconvenience not a piece of the puzzle. I will also be looking into TCM namely acupuncture. I don't expect to get pregnant right away or who knows maybe at all but my goal is to understand my reproductive system better to help facilitate TTC having decided not to go the ART way. I hope to put to good use my machines and tools.

Today was day one. Yeah!!!! I got to everything on my list.

Fall tune up

September 24 2010... I started TAM for the first time. I did about 6 months all out and went from 135 to 115 then I was more off then on for the remainder of the year. So on my one year anniversary marker, I've decided to begin once again to make huge efforts so i can finally get through the 3 months TAM meta hip. Of course having a trip down south to celebrate at end of november will be an exciting reward to look forward to. Well that and this could be the last time I can look hot before getting pregnant. God knows. I just weight myself... 125.5. I've gained 5 lbs since the end of the summer. I'm still happy with my looks but it's now time to tighten everything up again. I will take a picture in the morning and measurements to track my progress.

The other aspect of my fall tune up is a more pro active approach to TTC before the window is shot for good. I will now be tracking my basal temperature and test my PH level. The Ovacue reading will have to wait when I receive the monitor. supplement wise i'll be taking Baby and Me vitamins, Folate, Apple Cider Vinegar, Iron, Magnesium, DHEA, Progesterone and Gainefesin. I've been reading quite a lot on fertility and as elements of it start to make more sense and I receive the products i've ordered I'll change this up accordingly. Actually the iron is because I supposedly have no reserve which i've been taking through put the summer along with the DHEA drops.

I also started Oil Pulling again. I really feel my nails are better when I do it and take a sip of SOLE about once a day. I also juice a bunch of my veggies and weeds once a week. Then I take the roughage and stew it with water in a crop pot overnight. Once strained I drink this through out the week. I'd love to find out exactly what nutrients are in that drink. My dad always drank the water from the boiled veggies. It's seems a normal thing to do.

Here is the schedule i'd like to maintain.

7am: Take basal temperature and Ovacue reading. Have sex.
7h30am: Oil pull and meditate (read/ write/ pray).
8h00am: Have a Vega shake or oatmeal with fruit.
8h10am Stretch and do TAM every week day morning.
9h30am: Shower and get ready.
10h30am: Office.

My life prayer

God use my inability to control my self. Please give me wisdom. May the love culture of Jesus imbue my reactions so that in time, instinctively i will live the fruit of the Spirit and the good works that you have prepared for me. So that whether I know something to be good and don't to it or even if i am unaware of the malicious intent behind the harmful reaction.. May the result somehow contribute to aleive the suffering of those around me... with the intent to promote kingdom growth. Less of me and more of you.

I can see how controlling certain reactions by disarming the hurt that caused it be helpful that's why I choose to set my mind on thing that are pure and seek to in the moment partner with the Holy Spirit by positionally being in Christ. Thank you for making me whole!

Me


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Here are a few lifestyle changes I am contemplating to promote fertility and youthfulness.

1. Apple Cider Vinegar: drink 2 T with 1/2 t of baking soda in water. And bath in it.
2. Get my hands on some transdermal Magnesium. Which triggers DHEA
3. Start Oil Pulling again.
4. Barley Grass: http://sproutpeople.org/barleygrass.htm
5. Dates:
6. Robutussin: Determine your ovulation schedule. Take Robetussin like the label suggests beginning a few days before ovulation begins and continuing for 4-5 days. It will increase cervical mucus thus increasing the chances the little sperm will swim well! I believe the Guaifenesin increased our chance of getting pregnant along with prayer and agreement from my husband."
7. B12: Food high in B12 such as liver, oysters, and clams. for implantation of the fertilized egg, for carrying the fetus to term, and for producing a baby with a strong immune system as well as a neurological system. It is also necessary for male fertility, (sperm count, motility, and erectile function).
8. B6: 
9. Vitamine C: If a women wishes to hold a baby, it is very important that vitamin C is needed. What the vitamin C does it causes the baby to hold. Collagen is what holds the baby, and vitamin C is needed for the collagen production required to convert lysine and proline into hydroxylysine and hydroxyproline, which is a major component of the collagen. The other amino acid is glycine. So collagen is actually made up of primarily glycine, lysine and proline. The vitamin C is needed for their conversion. To help reduce miscarriage therefore at least 1000 mg of lysine, 1000 mg of proline and 2000 mg of glycine amino acid a day, plus 1000 mg of vitamin C two or three times a day, I believe is sufficient for the baby to hold. "One common cause of infertility is that the eggs do not stick to fallopian walls, in that case taking some vitamin C in form of sodium ascorbate will help this problem."
10. borax thing works both men and women, and it increases the chance of pregnancy when both parties take them. On men's side it increases sperm count and volume, and women it increases their hormones to normal levels, while the glycine blocks free radicals from free fatty acids that blocks sex hormones.
11. evening primrose gel caps

go to https://ssl.scroogle.org/

type in : "low follicle stimulating hormone" 


Akaline: http://www.earthclinic.com/Remedies/alkalizing_formulas.html

What a beautiful summer we have had. We started off with 11 days in Finland when we reacquainted ourselves with relatives, tried new tastes and learned some new words. My husband's family is from there and we brought our teenagers so they might learn what it means to be Finnish. of course I brought my my weed plant book and kept referring to it while we walked from castle sites to old mils mountain, along hikes and city escapades. I found kindred spirits on both my husband's cousin and his aunt. They showed me their books and what they new of plants and I showed them which weeds I eat back home. When we returned to the island the garden had dried up even though my in laws did their best to water it while we were away. The tomatoes had bud rot and sported a distorted shape. I cleaned up the dry stuff and proceeded to water everything using the 4 wheeler and trailer we bought earlier in the summer. More cousins came and we continued to enjoy happy family times another week or so. I went back to work for august so we started coming up weekend until we decided to go to my sister's wedding in New Zealand. We stayed one week and met fantastic people. What a beautiful family she married into. Now i'm back at the cottage for the week wi my brother and his family. We now have running water which helps tremendously. Every time I turn it on a do a little happy dance. Well that about wraps it up.