A model is as good as her last job. Then the model must start all over again the rejection process. One needs to find stability outside the industry in order to be able to handle the stress. Here is how I went about it....
A photographer asked my employer (aunt) when i was 13 if I could model. She said no without asking me. I only found out years after I had started modeling locally and internationally... I was 23. My work reflects my life. In the end it is good to have faced sorrow before entering this world. I was able to look for the adventure not the destination. Modeling became my ticket to enter a life full of culture and unheard languages. I've learned I can be more effective when I lower my expectations for the future and am ecstatic about the present. My goal is set on an eternal perspective . I aim to embrace and interact with what surrounds me by extending grace to those around me. (ie: giving a hand to those in need.) That is where my heart is. I first learned to build the right walls by exposing myself to pain. It is as if I tested all types of experience to understand how people live. I then realized the world was full of pain so I took what I new of Jesus and applied it to how I store information in my psyche. soon I started to adapt my action/reaction triggers. Each of our personalities has its roots in what we attach importance to from our often difficult lives. When one attaches a usefulness to the pain it becomes a mere frustration in our one track life. That is how I do it now. My self worth comes from knowing I am used of God. I want to be his hands and feet. Less of me more of others is a nice change. I now live in the now with an eternal perspective.
We all have a chance to build our self esteem from scratch. Many reevaluations take place throughout our lives. Our society is a conglomerate of faulty creatures. God is in the business of rebuilding broken lives. Their is so much hope ahead.
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